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Baking

intangibility92 — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 16:44:07 +0000

I’ve been baking a lot these days. It feels great to bake, especially when people eat the cake/pastry and their faces lit up.

I need to start working on my college apps to the max. I’ve been seriously putting them off. No bueno.

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intangibility92 — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 16:41:19 +0000

My whole family is angry with me…I can’t even walk around my own house; I tiptoe and sneak downstairs to get a cup of water. Why is my family so mad at me? Because I told my mom not to talk about money or give me money in front of my Aunt, who lives with us currently. Why? Because my freaking righteous Aunt would probably say, “You should earn your own money, and if you don’t have any money, then you shouldn’t go out.” She said this to my cousin, so I don’t think she’ll have a problem saying this to me. >:| Seriously, I do EARN my own money, but what’s wrong with receiving money from your own mom? I want to bitch-slap my Aunt. My heart is throbbing with blood anger.

My Aunt said that she’ll “leave the house” one time. THEN LEAVE. No one’s stopping you, especially ME. I would be more than happy for you to LEAVE. NOW.

I told my mom that I don’t want to go to church, that I force myself to go to service. She told me to not go to church, then. I mean, I believe in God, but I loathe the church. My feelings contradict each other, but what can I say?

My cousin called me and told me a lot of things. Then she added, “I probably shouldn’t be telling you this…” God forbid, YES YOU CAN.

Impatience

intangibility92 — Wed, 21 Oct 2009 00:55:30 +0000

I’m impatient for episode 4 of Angel’s Temptation to come out.

I feel ambivalent.

I have to read 30 more pages of All the Pretty Horses. :] The book isn’t that bad, on the bright side.

Key Club is stressful as always. I’m hanging-in there.

The UCLA representative probably knows that Sarah and I are sucking up to him.

Sarah and I went to Red Mango around 8:40. Frozen yogurt is delicious at night. And Sarah is a fassttt driver.

I had Love Sushi for Friday lunch in celebration of the official END of SAT’s. No more standardized testing for college! Woo!

October SAT scores coming out on October 29th. A little worried/scared. I hope they are “good.”

I wrote my personal statement part 1 for the UC’s…Massive editing!

Applying for colleges is a pain in the can (aka, buttocks).

I finally got 100% on my Calc test. Finally. It’s about time. But there were only 3 questions on the test…

Anyway, I must go back to reading the Pretty Horse book. I’ll read about 10 more pages, take a shower, then read 20 more pages. Answer the questions after sparknoting the book…Then, if I have time, spanish…maybe. Math h/w in the morning: 4:00 a.m. I love my life. *cough*

SAT

intangibility92 — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 03:39:43 +0000

The SAT is tomorrow. I pray that I won’t be nervous. I pray that I won’t have to go to the bathroom during the test. I pray that I will believe in myself. I pray that everything will go well. I pray that the experimental section is writing. I pray for a lot of things.

I pray for faith.

Colleges…Change Again

intangibility92 — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 23:12:19 +0000

The colleges I’m applying to changed yet again…Woopie doo!

(in no particular order) UCLA, Berkeley, USC, UCSD, University of Washington, Pepperdine

Possibly Pacific because it seems like the school wants to offer me a scholarship. I sure hope so!!! Because that would save me and my family a lot of money. Ca-ching!

Anxiety Meltdown

intangibility92 — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 23:04:30 +0000

I blanked-out while taking the practice SAT today…I didn’t even finish half of the test before I ran out of the testing room…What a morning, eh? On my last practice test, I got 2060. The expectation to get over 2100 this time freaked me out. But, then again, I ask myself, “nobody is expecting anything from you. Just try your best.” So why the heck am I so nervous?

Anyway, I “ditched” SAT prep today, went to the nail salon (I didn’t get my nails done, though, just waited for my mom and cousin), ate Red Brick Pizza with my cousin as we waited for my mom, and then went to Kohl’s. Woopie! I like Kohl’s. (:

I ate at Elephant Bar for a nice Friday lunch. Then went to AP Calc class later in the afternoon.

Last Friday, I went to Sarah Yun’s house and chillaxed for a while before heading out to the nearby community college and CPK. We talked about our families (pretty interesting conversation). Then off to class.

I watched G.I. Joe on Saturday with my cousin. The movie was okay. The girl at the theater pissed me off. I wanted to punch her. But I controlled myself. I can’t believe how rude she was. I hate it when people take advantage of kindness…

On Sunday, I actually went to service. It was a good service.

Hmm…I’m doing a lot better now. I’ve been praying…not to do something stupid again. I’ve endeavored to meditate this week. But I failed to do Q.T. every single day. I only did it twice this week, unfortunately.

My cousin wants to go swimming. But I’m a little tired. I rather watch a movie today, for some reason. Time Traveler’s Wife, to be exact. I definitely want to watch that movie.

I’m not enjoying school. But, of course, I’m trying to maintain optimism. Although I dread Spanish, I always remind myself, “You love foreign language. You love spanish. So don’t fret.”

College Update

intangibility92 — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 04:27:43 +0000

So it’s only been a day since I last wrote about college, but here I am blabbering about colleges yet again.

I shrunk the list of colleges I’m going to apply to:

UCLA, UC Berkeley, UCSD, University of Washington, Pepperdine, University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill, Bates College

Wow, only eight schools!

Music

intangibility92 — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 04:24:28 +0000

Listening to music is rejuvenating. Who knew? Ha. I almost forgot the power of music, the intensity of the notes when they blend together euphoniously.

Thank you, God, for the creation of music.

Currently listening to “My Memory.” ^_^

Calculus

intangibility92 — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 02:58:51 +0000

I have a Calc exam on Wednesday. I don’t feel prepared for it…*nervous* But I ain’t stressing. At least that’s what I tell myself.

Godsend Lifesaver :)

intangibility92 — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 02:56:29 +0000

Today I attempted suicide.

Hmmmmmm, now that doesn’t sound like something I would do, especially because I consider everday like living again.

Clearly, I am a big time hypocrite, just like everybody else.

God saved me today.

How am I even trying to live a life that glorifies Him?

JDS Bang came to my house to pray for me. I cried for 3 hours (not exactly sure). I told her my problems, all those issues bottled up inside of me.

I’m re-evaluating Christianity these days in a non-radical way. Er, I think it’s not radical.

Great news!! My SAT score rose from 1690 to 1820 (the power of two weeks). Hurray! One more month to go for SAT prep.

As one of the girls said, “SAT, you are a bitch. Prepared to be slapped.”

HAHAHA.

My goal: 1900

My even better goal: 2000

WOOOOOO. Let’s see what happens.

I dropped SAT II today to ease the pain and stress.